Apparently I Might Have Nyctophilia

Despite the fact that I'm not as young anymore, I still can learn new things. Yesterday I learned that I might have nyctophilia.

A WORLD (WIDE WEB) OF DISCOVERY:
The Internet can be so fun some days. You can stumble on to all kinds of new and exciting things. You can even relive that time you were younger and had a few less inches around your waist. Then there are those days that it takes all that joy away and scares you.

WHO NEEDS SLEEP ANYWAY?:
For decades, I've struggled to sleep at night. My brain constantly wakes me up in the middle of the night. Wide awake. My mind has always been more active at night. I feel more creative. More relaxed. Alive. Some of my best ideas were concocted in the middle of the night. I’ve always thought it was just insomnia, but now, thanks to the Internet, I may have discovered that it's nyctophilia instead.

HOWL AT THE MOON:
Outside under the moonlight is the most relaxing environment to me. Add in a campfire, and I could fall in love all over again. I find it difficult to fall asleep when I’m in that zone. It’s like my brain wants to enjoy that euphoric state more than it desires rest. That being said, I still need sleep, especially since I get up at 3:50 AM for work.

I'M A NYTOPHILIAC:

While searching for tips and tricks to combat insomnia, I stumbled across a new word. Dictionary.com defines "nyctophilia" as “a love or preference for night, darkness”. UrbanDictionary.com states it is “The love of darkness or night, or feeling like you belong in the dark. Usually applies to those who often feel sadness!” Nyctophilia is taken from the Greek language and it means “friend of the dark”.

I’m not sure about the whole ‘sadness’ part, but the rest of the description seems to fit me. I’m usually pretty happy, or at least content, with my life’s path. Enter hypochondria.

JUST WHAT I NEEDED:
I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do with my new-found knowledge, or if it gives me any comfort. I'm not sure if it's insomnia or nyctophilia. The one thing I know for sure is now my brain has something else to ponder while I try to fall asleep. Thanks Internet. Like my brain needs yet another thing to keep me up at night (LoL).